Wow... Two years later.... Guess what I had a baby!

As my baby naps, I am online looking for weight loss motivation... again. I am again on the bandwagon to drop weight and it sounds like a broken record.  I need to lose weight not for me but for my family.  I don't want to be "fat mom" or struggle keeping up to my 6 month old (she will be six months on Saturday). I am too embarrassed to share how much I now weigh. Lets just say I gained almost 20 lbs since Jaime was born. I breastfeed and supplement (don't make enough milk) and I take a crap load of medicine/herbs to increase my breast milk. I am not every active as I was during my pregnancy. I was walking over 1 - 2 hours a day (during lunch and breaks), now I am at home trying my best to be active and eat properly - which I feel that I am failing at. When I stepped on the scale today I almost crapped myself and I had a long cry and started to feel sorry for myself. Then I got mad.  Rather than being pissed off, I realize now I have to try even harder to be active and eat properly I am not getting any younger.  I am now 34 and a new mom. Here I am, eager to get fit and healthy once again for me and for my daughter!